Monday, May 4, 2009

wishes on the wind


















We buried my husband's sister, Patrice today. I am exausted and tired and can't seem to fall to sleep. It has been a week of heartache, of sadness, of unanswered questions, of spontaneous tears and restless sleeping. It has pained me to watch members of my family hurt so deeply.

I've been somewhat unaccustomed with the end of life's journey. Rather, I've grown accustomed to often witnessing the start of a new journey and the happiness and joy that are associated with it. I'm privledged to be a part of something beautiful, the coming together of two separate worlds into the joining of one new family. Different as they may be, the beginning and the end of the journey, I realize that they share one thing in common...they both are moments encompassed by love. Love is what carries us in and carries us on. It is the one thing that endures after life. love always endures. Watching someone leave this life truly reminds you that life is fleeting. It is short. It sounds cliche. Time passes too quickly though.

Today brought tears with it but somehow it brought peace too. Today reminded us of what we've always known, that our family is forever.  Today made me want to hug my babies a little tighter and tell my family just a few more dozen times today that I love them. Their stregnth amazes me, but it does not surprise me.

In the graveyard my children and I gathered dandelions. I taught them about how the wind could carry their wishes. Finn picked up one and wished for a fish, another he wished for his Daddy to be happy, and the last one he wished for Aunt Patrice. I watched as the soft dandelion floated quietly on the breeze. I too wish you well Patrice. Your life has touched our hearts and we will always love you.

9 comments:

Sara said...

I am sorry for your loss :(

Keri said...

Thanks for posting Heather. Our hearts have been heavy and our prayers with your family. Thank you for your beautiful words and insight. I love the pictures too. I can't believe how much Milla has grown up just since we saw her at Heather's wedding. Tell everyone hello and that we are thinking of you all and wish that we could be there for the wedding this weekend. Hugs and kisses to all.

Loni said...

What beautiful thoughts. I agree with your love analogy. It was fun to see your family again. They are such cute kids. Good luck with a the final wedding/reception plans. You all continue to be our thoughts an prayers.

Heather said...

Thank you Heather. That was so well said. This has really opened our eyes to how short life is and how precious each moment is. I have been thinking about your family and praying for you guys daily. We hope to make it to the wedding this weekend and cant wait to see you if we do. (it was a little hectic last time ;)we saw you guys )

twigg said...

Heather, that was so beautifully written and touching and so true! you are an amazing writer besides all your other talents,and the photos you took of your sweet little family are beautiful too. Give Vicki and Perry our love, and the rest of the family too.
love you, mama

Joyful Weddings and Events said...

Heather,

Thank you for sharing. It was a beautiful and heartbreaking post. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

My brother in law passed away suddenly a couple of years ago and it was such a sad time for my family. Yet, through it- our love and understanding of family grew and we have seen God work some amazing things since then. (That is actually how my son came about- but that is a whole other story!)

I will be praying for your family.

Aimee said...

Heather, Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I love how you taught Finn about how the wind will carry his wishes and the wishes he made. It was comforting for me to also see the photos at the cemetery since I am so far away. Thank you for being such an amazing wife to my brother and also sister-in-law. I know you have been a blessing to my mom this week with all your wonderful talent and wedding preparations. Wishing we could be there today but I know that the health of my baby and I come first. Love you! xoxo

Ben, Julia, Griffin & Sophie said...

You are amazing. I love you my friend. Can't wait to see you and Triz this weekend so I can give you both a big hug.

andrea said...

i just love you and troy and milla and finn